Thursday, May 18, 2006
.. sigh.
this post is for baobei wenwen.
baobei,
i've really said it too many times,
that i dont wanna say in msn anymore.
i choose to blog it here.
so u can look and reflect over again and again.
i was telling you,
that what if my school starts?
my only worry is for you right now.
i wun even haf such time to plan for u all these.
i've already said baobei,
1 hr of study everyday! why cant u keep to it?
u must really learn to discipline urself.
if u meet dandan yesterdae liao, why still meet jiahui for dinner?
im nort saying u cant meet her, but u see,
after meeting her, u dun even have time to study.
end up , the time accumulates up.
and saturday u've to study 2hr 30mins,
cos tmr u'll be out one whole day and cannot study.
baobei, u really got to discipline urself larhhh..
cant u see how worried i am,
i can just jolly well be having so much fun with you outside,
i dun mind meeting u everyday to have fun,
but what bout ur studies ? ? ?
frm beginning of the year,
i've been telling you,
i dun care whether u like it or nort,
but u'll have to study an hour everyday.
and if u dun study, i'll let the study time accumulate.
u HAVE to learn to be independant.
everyone wants freedom.
i know u dun like daddy always keep u at home.
but, whats the reason?
if it wasnt becos u're a retained student,
daddy wun keep u at home like that.
but ur daddy also never do much.
who's doing the most to help you?
me.
and even sometimes when i ask u study,
u get unhappy.
sigh.
everyone wants freedom.
but if too much freedom is given,
u'll fly like a bird, and get out of hand.
take ur jiejie as an example.
i've nothing against her seriously.
she's quite nice for a fren.
but hey, look.
if she knew how to be independant,
and daddy dint gave her so much freedom,
so much wouldnt had happened to her.
i know im in no position to judge anione..
but what im trying to say is..
u've to learn from other people's experiences.
otherwise u'll fall like them.
until now..
i still must remind u to study everyday.
you said u never forget to study.
okay den let me
test you one day.
i PURPOSELY don remind you lor,
den at the end of de day, i tell you.
see u pekchek or nort pekchek when i tell you.
ur daddy even came to me that day.
there's pressure on you,
there's also pressure on me.
he warned me like a
chao ah beng.that if you dont pass ur exams,
he will come after me.
although he's doing nothing about it,
bout he's worried too. that he warns me liddat.
im under pressure and stress too pls understand.
and one more thing.
if you want freedom,
u must first be able to prove to daddy that u're independant.
that u're sensible.
the easiest way is thru ur results.
if daddy comes between us, we might get broken up.
this one u also know.
so this time, u know u're nort only studying for ur own sake.
u're studying for our sake too.
sometimes i also wonder how much u can absorb when u study urself.
i really doubt it. seriously really doubt.
cos when u study, u dun even ask me questions.
that time i even ask you.
you said u dont know, u skip.
how can liddat.. if you dont know,
u must ASK what.
if u skip, den u FOREVER dont know how to do what.
sigh...
why until now, i still must worry so much for you,
why cant you prove to me that u dont need me to plan for you.
prove to me that u can study urself..
one more example,
you said u wanted to save money return me.
but yet, u went dinner with jiahui.
u eat out. waste money again.
at the way u're saving money, u will take duno how long.
this example shows that u arent independant isnt it ?
if dandan wanna save $30, within 1 week. settled.
definitely.
there're so many examples nah baobei.
u've to prove urself independant,
before u can expect freedom.
everyday 1 hr, it isnt alot isnt it..
pass 5 subjects, i hope u're able to do it.
im worried bout u baobei.
i hope u're about urself.
.ıοѕтιиdєѕтагѕ.« just you & me =] ;; *PUDDING- WENTER & DANTER !* says:whats the point
».ıοѕтιиdєѕтагѕ.« just you & me =] ;; *PUDDING- WENTER & DANTER !* says:
u ask me, i give u answer u dun understand at all
».ıοѕтιиdєѕтагѕ.« just you & me =] ;; *PUDDING- WENTER & DANTER !* says:wats de point
{ " W E N D Y - when the past used to be so sweet " } says:huuh..
».ıοѕтιиdєѕтагѕ.« just you & me =] ;; *PUDDING- WENTER & DANTER !* says:huh she me..
" W E N D Y - when the past used to be so sweet " } says:i ask to confirm ma..
».ıοѕтιиdєѕтагѕ.« just you & me =] ;; *PUDDING- WENTER & DANTER !* says:u ask me the qns i give u ans, u also dun understand
{ " W E N D Y - when the past used to be so sweet " } says:huh then.. how..
u see..
you dont even have a sense of urself..
u dun even know what to do.
u've become so dependant on me...
if you dont know, i can give you the answer,
but if after i give u the answer, u so happy,
u dun even ask me why the answer is like that,
den in de end, what do you really study?
what do you really learn...
how am i to help u when my school starts..
im so worried baobei.
pls be more independant and disciplined.
...
this is nort a post to scold or lecture.
its a post to remind you,
over the countless times i've told you bout all these.
when my school starts.
make sure u return to this post time to time to read.
and KEEP urself reminded.
i love you baobei.
».lostindestars.« @ 5:38 AM
