Monday, July 10, 2006
bro, u suck.
been rather busy lately..
my BIOLOGICAL grandfather in Brunei,
passed away last last sunday.
not close to him. neither have i seen him before.
but oh wells. mum and uncles went over to Brunei,
to bring his ashes back to Singapore.
and then.. so.. 2 of my uncles who had migrated to overseas,
came back to pay Grandma a visit.
so.. they came over to our place and stayed over,
for the past 2 nights.
something really sick happened 2nights back.
*WARNING WARNING*
**the few paragraphs below contains profanities and vulgarities**
**do not read if u're not interested to.**
okay.
lets start all over from the beginning.
okay, it was 2AM++.
bro, bro's gf, cousin, cousin's gf,
were all in bro's room watching DVD.
2 uncles were slping in the living room.
suddenly, the condo phone rang.
the condo phone, is the phone that the security at the condo entrance use,
to ask us and confirm with us that we HAVE visitors.
yupp. so the condo phone in the living room rang so so loud,
for so so so so long.
and tada, i went to pick it up.
den the security spoke to me
"hello, u ordered macdonald delivery?"
yuppp. den okay,
immediately i knew, definitely those 4 in the bro's room,
were the ones who ordered.
so, i was kinda pissed.
becos we hardly get visitors at home,
and BOTH uncles were slping in the living room,
yet the condo phone rang so long and loud,
the 4 of them still happily watching DVD in the room.
so, i went to the room and 'complained' .
"eh, u all ordered macdonald is it?"
"u all order macdonald must lookout for the condo phone one ma""ring so long and so loud, den got 2 uncles SLEEPING in the living room leh."
den bro got pissed,
came out and gave attitude.
"the security call, MY FAULT AH??"
"wan stay condo, wan complain what security call??"
"u not happy, u MOVE OUT LA."
"chao chee bye."
and den i got really pissed.
and replied.
"eh. you scold me vulgarities for what?!"
and den he started getting aggressive.
shouted at this while pointing at me.
"KANINA. U NOT HAPPY U COME LA."
"CHAOCHEEBYE. SCARED AH. U WAN U COME LA."
lucky, grandma was there to stop him.
this time i held myself back.
i didnt go fight with him.
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my thoughts after this.
i felt really upset,
really really upset.
i teared that whole night till i went to bed.
u know how much it sucks when ur own flesh and blood,
which is supposed to be ur closest, turns out to be like this.
im really disappointed,
that i HAVE a brother like you.
u were an
NS policeman back then,
now at home,
u still wanna come
chao ah beng with me ah?
whats worst,
BOTH UNCLES WERE SLPING IN THE LIVING ROOM.
u ACTUALLY wanted to fight with me,
in the living room??
heh.
u think im afraid of you ah.
skinny fuck.
if u wanna come fight with me,
i jolly well make sure i put up a good fight with u.
you dont even know how to think.
we HAVE visitors at home,
yet u still wanna fight with me in the living room.
i've PREDICTED all circumstances that would happen,
if u read this blog, i dun give a fucking shit.
what kinda person you are,
do i still not know??
c'mon, go ahead and get all ur '
brothers' to beat me up.
try. you've always been like that havent you?
since i was sec1 sec2, those years when i was still an immature arrogant child,
u already told the liondance people to find ppl to beat me up havent you?
well,
if im such a thorn in ur flesh,
i already know what to do if this happens the nxt time.
i'll get a knife,
and den get u to STAB me.
i dont mind getting STABBED,
in exchange to land u in jail.
i've a strong will to live.
i wont die easily.
have u even realised.
how many times has this happened??
since the first one at chaichee,
the 2nd one last year JUNE,
that i couldnt take it and left house for 1 whole bloody week.
and let me tell you.
I DIDNT START ANY OF IT.
YOU were the one who got aggressive,
and wanted to beat me up.
i've always gave u respect as a brother.
whatever u've done,
you dont ever push any blame to others.
cos if u did NOTHING wrong,
NOTHING will happen to you.
u're just a LUCKY FUCK,
that momi is really blind, to stay by ur side.
YOU YOURSELF knew what took place that time.
you're a LUCKY fuck that she chose to stay.
and you've ALWAYS been lucky.
but let me tell you,
u wont be so lucky all the time.
why?
pissed after reading this?
come. take my life.
my life is just a puny small life.
the least i know what i've been doing these 18 years.
i spent my life helping everyone around me.
i live my life happily seeing everyone happy.
i live my life helping people,
making everyone ard me happy.
i never blame people whenever things happen to me.
becos i've learnt LOADS of lesson,
and i know EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
i dont go around chaoahbeng,
i dont go around fucking gurls ard,
i dont go around blaming ppl whenever something happens.
i pray hard,
pray that you'll be enlightened soon.
get a life, u're 23 this year.
start thinking for the FAMILY.
grandma can no longer support you.
she gives me 10 a day,
and 20 a day for you, just cos u smoke.
even ur ciggies, grandma gave her savings for u.
even MYSELF, may not be taking anymore allowance from her already.
pls lah. u wanna smoke ur life away,
dun get money from her.
and since u want it this way,
let me ASSURE you,
i will
NOT TOUCH ur clothes shoes,
or ANYTHING to do with you,
i WONT touch them anymore.
Grandma, im sorry today,
that i shouted at you.
but dont ever blame me,
when bro's in the wrong.
if its my fault, i'd JOLLY WELL admit it,
but when its NOT my fault,
over my dead body, would i admit that im in the wrong.
so grandma, im sorry.
».lostindestars.« @ 10:06 AM
