Saturday, September 16, 2006
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its been one year hasnt it darling..?
why does such problems still surface until now..
we were practically caps-ing our way through the conversation.
u got me pissed real badly again..
what is it that i've not done ?
what makes u so upset, what makes u misunderstood,
what makes u upset over the slightest thing??
what did i do wrong..
what did i do to make u unhappy?
everything i do, with you in consideration first.
yes, not everything, but ALMOST everything..
whats wrong now...?
i HATE it, when i see u getting affected when stuffs happen,
and instead of sitting down and think of what to do,
u choose to run away, and cry out everything,
and then, how to carry on from there, u dun even think..
u'd only say u're trying u're trying...
ask urself. if u're trying, would all these still happen?
....
u're unhappy?
only u're? im not?
haa..
......
my perseverance, tolerance and patience,
gave us our 1 year anniversary.
but its not gonna last us, unless you persevere, tolerate and be patient too.
its not gonna last us, if u refuse to compromise,
refuse to listen and get unhappy over SMALL things which u shldnt be..
u asked, why haven i left you?
at times u asked, if you left me, i'd be more happy.
i would have GLADLY left you,
but i chose to stay.
why did i?
4simple words.
"Because I Love You."
i don fucking stay with you,
go thru all the thick and thin,
all the ups and downs for no reason..
its been a year..
what've u done?
u keep saying u've tried.
u keep saying "you only keep saying i never do anything"
but ask urself.. what have u done to make our relationship better?
forgetting to study helps?
saving up all ur money and squander it off again helps?
or getting unhappy over the slightest matter helps? does it?
...
because i love you,
i've never left, and i've never mentioned that i wanna give up.
although many times especially our 8th and 9th month,
i felt so much like giving up,
but i didnt my love,
i STOOD AS FIRMLY AS I CAN.
i TOOK IN WHATEVER I COULD.
JUST to see us goin on for a second,
JUST TO see us holdin on for another minute another hour,
JUST to see us together for another day, another week or month.
nonsense i've really put up with..
is there a better way to make me feel better darling?
u know how much i love those days,
where we go out staying HAPPY throughout the whole day?
how i miss those days..
it could be a simple 1-2 hour spent together,
but so long as we enjoyed and stayed happy,
and spent this 1-2hours to de fullest.. thats so much i can ask for.
u asked me why i said "I Love You" everytime we quarrel.
despite that both of us were still hot on heels,
why do i still say "I Love You" after a quarrel.
because i dont want a quarrel to let us fade away,
because i want a quarrel to STRENGTHEN us instead of fading.
because I Love You, thus i want you to know that, I love you.
its this simple... nothing more.
well darling..
when u're back, do read this,
and before u're ready to talk to me.
do think over what u can do..
to make our relationship a better one.
because u know, I love you,
and u wont wanna disappoint me again.. =]
I love you darling.
».lostindestars.« @ 1:32 AM
