Sunday, September 17, 2006
cheryl mei.
well..
if u all haven forgotten..
maybe u all wouldnt know.
Renee would probably know..
cos back then in 2003 and 2004,
i often mention in my old blog about Cheryl.
well.. Cheryl's actually my Godsis.
still remember i got to knew her in a very unique way,
back then it was 2003 november-december. somewhere ard there.
then.. she was just a little girl pri 6 back then.
she was being bullied by a sec1 gangster boy in my school at blk63's bball court.
the court which was behind ping yi sec.
den Yan Yu bro was with me playing ball back then.
we sort of saw it, and felt VERY offended.
cos that boy, by the name of Yong Chen, was like trapping her at one corner of the court,
and practically repeating this words,
"gei wo ni de hao ma leh.. gei wo leh" (give me your number leh, give me leh..)super desperate lar that fella.
so.. feeling offended, yan yu bro and i confronted him.
that was how Cheryl got 'saved' by us.
she was only p6 back then..
i got to know her in this unique special way.
which made me... dote on her alot. =]
of all my godsisters, Cheryl was the one,
whom i doted along as if she was my real blood sister.
she came to ping yi in 2004.
i watched her grow up.
watched how she mixed with her company of friends.
gave her loadsa advices, time to time checking on her.
nagging her to quit smoking and stuffs.
haa. the both of us are like..
each time we see each other in school back then,
we'd give each other a hug larh.
not in any flirtatious way or anything,
but becos yar, we're like that.
its like when u all girls, see your best friend outside,
and give your best friend a hug like that.
yupp. hugged little cheryl each time i saw her in school. =]
but after i found myself a gf, i never hugged cheryl anymore. =p
had to be sensitive towards dis kinda issue...
well.. thats not the most impt point..
i've blogged so much..
lets come to the main point now..
Cheryl.. she just turned 15 today. =]
and... she has quitted school early this year in March.
guess what happened to her? you guys will never know..
Cheryl is now a mother of 3month baby boy, Darryl Tay Zhan Xing.
its very surprising how things changed isnt it?
ever since i graduated from ping yi,
cheryl and i dont contact much as often,
i also hardly see her online, each time i see her online,
i'd just chat with her, but thats like so seldom,
past 3 months, i havent seen her online. no chance to catch up.
since mid year last year,
or even earlier, Cheryl's been telling me her bf,
a 22year old guy, just keeps hitting her all the time.
u know.. somehow now, i kinda regret.
i never had the intention to break couples up.
i felt offended back then, but because it was their own problem,
i could only advise...
i know its no point blaming myself now,
but if back then, i ADVISED her to break up with this 22year old bf,
things wouldnt turn out this way today..
this morning, when i woke up,
i look at the date, den i thought, god its september 17th already.
tmr's gonna be Cheryl's birthday.
so i asked Baobei Wenwen, to ask her friends to get Cheryl's contact,
cos i lost her contact..
yup, on the bus to parkway for lesson today,
baobei wenwen told me what her friend told her,
that cheryl's with a baby aged 3months old..
and i was like..... shocked? taken back?
more of what i was feeling was....
more of .. depressed. and upset...
she's only a girl aged 14++ back then,
turned 15 today..
and the past 1 year, must have been hard on her.
especially when Cheryl's such a small sized girl,
only ard height of 148cm? around there..
i really cannot imagine her with her big tummy.. can u?
sigh... i was so shocked and taken aback,
that tears just came to my eyes...
i felt really... helpless.
especially each time when i have the chance to catch up with her,
she'd tell me "dun worry korkor, my bf respects me alot."
i even warned her that the mentality of 20year olds and girls her age are different.
i've even ruled out the possiblility that she has gone through sexual intercourse already.
so there was once i asked her,
"mei ah.. are u stil holding on to your 'v'?"
she replied yes she was..
and told me not to worry..
sigh....
i dont know larh.
why tell me all these?
she obviously din want me to worry,
thus din tell me everything..
or maybe she din bother to let me know?
but she knows how much i cared for her larh.. sigh.
i just called her just now to wish her happy birthday.
she talked so normally like there's no burden or anything..
i kept saying "zhe ji ge yue,
xin ku ni le mei."
and she'd tell me "mei you ah, wo jue de hen
xin fu."
meaning, "this few months has been hard on you."
but she told me "nah, i feel very blessed now."
mei ah mei...
thruout the whole conversation of around 50mins,
we were like.. nothing to say nothing to say.
only catching up and nagging her.
i felt really weird talking to her now..
she's a mother now.
but i really nagged at her alot. haha..
like asking her to change her lifestyle and habits.
she's still as nonchalent as ever.
could be a good thing, could also be vice versa.
i somehow feel that i fail being a godbro.
even MAJOR thing.. she hid it from me, and i dint know anything at all,
until today, den i found out everything..
haa.
i wish i could help her out as much as i can now.
i even asked her if her parents take care of the baby,
she said no. the baby is FULLY taken care by her..
because she's single parent, and her parent works.
how can a girl her age get stucked to such burden.. it sucks..
staying at home everyday to look after her child.
even if she wants to go out, she has to bring her child out..
it must really be hard on her..
i've decided,
im gonna do whatever i can within my ability to help her. =]
can u guys, sell me some DVDS of nice movies you dont want?
she stays at home most of the time,
i wanna get her DVDS to watch. =]
wenwen baobei, i hope u'd help me out too.
will you darling?
pls dont mind me, i really wanna help cheryl.
she's like my most doted sister ever.. =]
lets do what we can to help her shall we?
this includes my friends.. im not expecting alot..
but i hope whoever can help me.. do help me. =]
whatever that can kill time, just give it to me or sell it to me cheap. =]
DVDs and stuffs?
now i realise how hard is it.
when people pass msges around asking ppl to help forward,
i dont bother reading.
now i know how hard it is.
cheryl says she's fine the way she is now.
so whatever im doing, is of my own free will.
do help me out guys.
and i'd love u guys even more.. =]
haha.
thanks. =]
».lostindestars.« @ 10:42 AM
