Tuesday, June 05, 2007
爱情本来就是自私的。。
你所对我造成的一切伤害，我无法怪你..
只能怪自己，无法带给你,
你所期待和在寻找的真正爱情。
我很遗憾的，失去了你。。
这是我这一辈子，最后悔，最痛心的一件事。
我只能。。走到哪，对着我们的开心回忆，
边笑，边哭。
我好想你，我真得无法用语言来表自己。
这些回忆， 真的.. 是我这一身中，
最不想忘记，最不想失去的美好，痛苦回忆。。
最能够，另我天天自己对着自己痛哭的回忆。
真的好想你.. 真得很渴望, 很希望能看到你的微笑.
你知道吗.. 我有多想听听你对说'我爱你'这三个字..
但是,我很清楚,一切已经不能再从来了..
一切,已经变了.. 没办法再回头了.
我只能忠心地祝福你,
希望他能给你,所有我给不了你的浪漫.
希望他能给你,一切我不能给你的美满爱情.
也只能希望,他会比我.. 更加更加地照顾你,爱户你.
我还需要很多时间..
我会真的好想你, 好想你..
希望你会快乐.
我好想你..
我会一直在一旁,守护着你..
沈桂妃, 我爱你.
».lostindestars.« @ 12:22 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
im giving up.
im sorry everyone. i cant take it anymore.
remember to miss me.
i'll be missing for a few days.
"Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word"(Sorry seems to be the hardest word)
What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?
What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.
What do I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.
It's sad, so sadIt's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sadWhy can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.
Yeh. Sorry
What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word.
».lostindestars.« @ 11:25 PM
Thursday, May 31, 2007
its may 31st..
the 11th day already..
he's still struggling.
though he seems much cheerful now.
who would have known,
everything's just superficial.
he's still struggling..
alone in his lovey dovey world.
».lostindestars.« @ 12:50 AM
Friday, May 25, 2007
i'll always.. love you.
been in bad shape for the last 5days..
today's de 5th day after we broke up...
and im crying all over again..
i found this song..
and thought that it totally describes everything..
everything.. that im going through now..
thought of sharing with u guys.. haa..
Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You
If I Should stay I would only be in your way So I'll go But I know I'll think of you every step of the way And I... Will always Love you, oohh Will always Love you You My darling you Mmm-mm Bittersweet Memories That is all I'm taking with me So good-bye Please don't cry We both know I'm not what you You need And I... Will always love you I... Will always love you You, ooh [Instrumental / Sax solo]I hope life treats you kind And I hope you have all you've dreamed of And I wish you joy and happiness But above all this I wish you love
And I... Will always love you I... Will always love you
I... Will always love you..
.. totally describes everything im going through..
i wish you happiness.. ..
and i will always.. i mean always.. love you..
».lostindestars.« @ 1:15 AM
Monday, May 21, 2007
.. i dont know how to carry on..
i cant go on..
every minute seems like an hour..
every hour seems like a day..
i gave u everything..
now im left with nothing..
nothing at all..
all alone..
.. all by myself.
».lostindestars.« @ 3:55 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
he's broken.
you guys know what's de saddest thing in life?
haha.
he grit his teeth and held on throughout all struggles,
he told himself to be strong, because he has to be strong for her.
he patiently bears and tolerates everything and
he perservered through countless emotional struggles in a relationship,
just to last 1 more hour, 1 more day, 1 more week, 1 more month with his loved one.
he acts stupid just to cheer her up,
he does sweet things time to time, to fill de relationship with surprises.
most importantly of all..
he casted away all his good and close friends, and drew his line,
just cos and worried that she might get unhappy..
he made it this far..
day by day, week by week, month by month,
because he truly loves her.
but.. he forgotten that love is 2 sided,
that people will change.. love will subside..
nothing lasts forever..
she left him.
.. she left him after 21months eventually.
he's broken now.
».lostindestars.« @ 4:15 AM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
random post..
I FINALLY CUT MY HAIR!
AFTER 13MONTHS!!
i tried styling.. it doesnt stand at all!
so.. this hairstyle cannot spike at all, its meant to be flat.
after not styling for 10months, suddenly i feel that both my hands are useless.
hahah.
well this is how i look now.
with make up.
trying to look Jrock, haha,
but of course i dont put on make up when i go out now. =]
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its 3.24AM now, and since its past 12am,
its 18.may.07 now..
time passes so fast.
just 10hours ago, ard 5.30pm,
i had my number 7th session of pool with Isaac and Kelvin.
pool's so fun!
yea yeah.. go ahead and laugh,
a boy, nono, a young man at age of 19, finally learning to play pool.
hahahaa. but its so addictive!
though losing again and again,
its just so fun to play.
by the 5th session, i was actually already on my own,
able to play with them, as in clearing quite alot of balls,
however when it reaches the last 1 or 2 balls, they beat me to it.
oh wells.. alot has happened over the months.
u know.. past 1 week, i've been sleeping like 4.30am, 5am every morning.
im living a life so lifeless now. deprived of sports, and fun.
wenwen darling just finished her exams, hope she has more time to spend with me now.
Isaac and gang seldom hang together too.
sigh.
really alot has happened,
been through alot of ups and downs.
i realise im quite introvert now, seldom open up to anyone.
through the big and small quarrells with darling,
i've been so numb and used to everything that i no longer confide in anyone.
i dont even notice myself,
until XM chatted with me few days back,
then i realise, its really so true, that i no longer tell anyone bout myself.
i wasnt like this, but because lately,
i believe that all problems in a relationship can be solved within 2 people,
doesnt need to implicate others or other's opinion.
maybe i think im matured enough to handle it..
well or even maybe i think that no one's matured enough to give me good quality advices.
am i stubborn or what?
i dont know.
i just feel that i've been through really alot in this L.O.V.E field,
and learnt alot over the years,
i may only have 1 ex girlfriend, but over the years, everything else
opens my mind fresh and made me realised and learnt alot alot of things,
that not just anyone's advices work on me now.
probably because i think that i really have seen alot happen,
feel and been through alot,
that none of their advices seem to work on me.
i do feel alone alot of times.
i need some understanding...
anyone does? they say they do..
but they dont make me feel that they do.
how many can actually understand..
im happy all the time,
am i?
i appear happy all the time,
cheerful.. everything.
who really understands..?
friends i lost, i try to catch up,
alot of them changed, because we dont catch up often,
we fade away.
i remain helpless in this situation
and sit down watching everything fade away from me.
weird,
why do i feel this sense of loneliness time to time.
i remember this feeling.
i felt it like 4-6months, or was it 8-10months ago?
i simply dont remember.
this feeling of loneliness out of the sudden.
so overwhelming that you feel like ..
crying but you dont know why at all.
i havent felt like that for quite a long time.
everyone says they understand.. man, who does?
things which are expected to change for the better,
remains unchanged.. am i expecting too much?
too much that i get disappointed again and again..
my heart breaks each time i think of it..
i grow tired and weak.. who understands..?
repeated disappointments,
helpless struggles,
holding onto plain hopes and expectations..
i cry really easily nowadays.
is that because my heart cant take anymore?
i've been putting up brave fronts again and again..
i dont cry, does that mean im not hurt?
does someone has to cry, to show that they're hurt, they're sad?
u know, if everyone didnt care bout the feelings of their loved ones,
and blog everything according to how they feel,
this world would be a mess.
i feel loneliness, once again.
may 18, 2007. 3.51AM
».lostindestars.« @ 12:24 PM
with make up.